49-51

The hot friend guy, we all have one. You know the one all your friends think is cute but you still like to flirt with them a little for fun? Ya, that’s Mr. old school. I say the name, “Mr. old school” because he has this aura about him that’s different than the rest of averagely attractive looking frat guys, he likes older music, dresses like Jake Ryan from Sixteen Candles, and is very good in bed. Don’t get me wrong, he’s still your typical asshole but Mr. Old school is special. He has this thing where he likes to use the phrase 49-51, which translates to “ you don’t get to treat me like one of your beta boys(aka pussies)I am in control here and this is a change that you need”. I am used to getting what I want when it comes to boys, it was easy to manipulate them, just be a little pouty, bite your lip with a bit of cleavage and it works every time. Unfortunately, that doesn’t work with Mr. Old school, he knows me too well, I think to myself, If it doesn’t work so easily, what makes me want him so badly? I know, that’s exactly why. Easy is boring and hard is challenging. Simple. Challenging is exciting, tempting and fun, It’s not everyday you meet a guy who you actually wanna put effort towards. So, I got to thinking, does 49-51 really mean, in his words, “dominant” over the other or does it mean, I think I like you and I want you to continue to let me chase you so I don’t get bored, and if you haven’t guessed it yet…I’m 49. The thing with Mr. Old school is, he pisses me off, sometimes makes me cry, and doesn’t always treat me with all the respect I deserve and I know those 3 things shouldn’t include a but…but he made me feel good when I was with him. No one has ever made me feel like that and I don’t know how or why but he made me feel safe. I’ll thank him eventually when he’s ready to grow up but for now I’ll keep it to myself and continue to try to see the good in Mr. old school, even though he will never fully apologize for telling the ‘truth’ but his eyes always say sorry. I’ve learned to understand how the girls fall so hard for him now… however, I hope he realizes how the guys fall hard for me too.